agonized

He agonized over the couple’s son, who had just witnessed his mother’s violent death, and vowed not to cheat the law with “subterfuge.”

“That’s what agonized him so much — that when you record things, they are forever.”

That triggered another fraught process as board members agonized over the structure of a deal that would reward rank-and-file shareholders — not just the Redstones.

She agonized over what it would sound like.

I agonized about what to do but never made concrete plans.